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| Sunday, May 22nd, 2005 | | 4:35 am |
OMG!!!!! Drama! Livejournal's hilarious.. It makes me think of dead babies in the rain. I wish i was one. Gimmie some White castle! REauooW! Ps- i killled anna... OOPS! | | 4:24 am |
Hahahaaa RANDOM. I dont understand livejournal, but i will verify that im a, JUST FRIENDS with CHIP!! He is a friend, like my brother but not really... but kinda close.. but not really. Apperantly my tanned leg touch his.. or his buttox... or his life. I dont really know, but i utterly hope it was his buttox. LOL. Tonight was fun!!! Chips parents need to go ut of town more. There was like 10000 people here... but not really. DRRRRRAAAAAAMMMMMMMAAAAA!!! I love it. Give me Mcdonalds!! I dont like beds. Seee ya later. DrAMA! LivejournaL. Sometimes it makes me puke! Blaaahhhhhhhh..... | | Wednesday, April 20th, 2005 | | 10:59 pm |
An upDate
I'M GOING TO THUNDER!!! yaaaay! Hopefully, i'll get to chill with my Louisville peeps. Today was awsome. I spent some quality time with Amanda. We went to the mall and i got a cute shirt with a bumblebee on it that says "bee yourself" LOL! i am sooo queer! But it's real cute and it was only six bucks! Then we worked out and Jake came a long. It was nice. Working out and eating good has really paid off cause im starting to feel a lot better. Plus i can walk up the hill now without dying of exhaustion lol. Tomorrow, im going to pick up my dress for Jake's airforce formal, and go see Erica's ballet recital. Ps- Erica, what time is it at for sure? Current Mood:  cheerful | | Wednesday, April 6th, 2005 | | 9:09 pm |
God i miss being single... I am so sick of this shit. I wanna make my own choices and decisons. I can't always make him happy. fuck it! Current Mood:  aggravated | | Thursday, March 31st, 2005 | | 11:27 am |
This is F-ing hilarious!
 Lactating Barbie? What the fuck is wrong with you? Snap out of it and kill the kid while you still can! If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be? brought to you by QuizillaUmm fun times! Yesterday, Jake was at rotc, and i got to hang out with my friends all day, which was really nice! I dyed my hair blondish too (well actually mandy's friend Sara did it). I dunno it's definatly different thats fo sure but i like it. It reminds me of freshman yr except it looks a lot better. They were supposed to be highlight, but theres so much of them that it looks kinda like my whole hair. Im so glad i did this tho! i needed a change! Who knew color from a box could look so good?! Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: Cat Power- "he war" | | Monday, March 28th, 2005 | | 8:07 pm |
Ahhhhh my face is peeling. gross! Easter was awsome. Jake and i got up early and went to church, then aet some french fries since it was offically the end of lent. yaaay. Greesyness tastes oh so good when you havent eaten it for 40 days. Yea i decided not to go home, even tho i was serverely tempted. I miss mom and the fam, and since i wasnt home, the easter bunny didn't visit. It made me sad, but it made me appreciate the REAL meaning of easter. Anyways, on the way to the airport to pick up Amanda, i went to a drug store and got a chicky pez despenser, and some peeps. I had to, i mean what easter without peeps anyway?! Today was sick and rainy, and i did really shitty on my psy quiz Hopfully tomorrow will be better... Current Mood:  horny | | Saturday, March 26th, 2005 | | 2:04 pm |
WOW. Spring break was a freakin blast 4 real!!
First we went to Gattlinburg and camped out with the bears (supposedly there a lot of bears there), but it was in the mountains and it was absolutely beautiful! And if any of you has ever been to gattlinburg, theres a little town with the coolest shops, and we had soo much fun! However it was really cold so we only stayed for one night. So then we drove drove drove through the mountains and into alabama, where we stayed the night in a cheap hotel, then off to FLA!!! We went to St. Joseph Penninsula, which is at the southern most part of the pan-handle, and it actuallly is the strip of land the juts out into the water. It was the most BEAUTIFUL beach ive EVER been to. And in 2002, it was the rated the most beautiful beach in the nation. It was hot and sunny the whole time we were there (except for the day we got there), and i got burnt on my face (funtimes), and jake looks like a lil lobster. But anyways, our campsite was in the middle of this rainforest, two seconds away from the beach and you had to hike through a little trail to get to it. It was soo amazingly beautiful. Me and Jake rented a huge raft and pattled out into the ocean everyday to see how far we could get. And at night we drank rum, sat by the campfire, and went on the beach looking for crabs. This is a pic of the beach there, and our campsite was right behind the dunes  I had a alot of fun with Jake, but i did miss my friends a lot, and i cant wait to see you all when you get back! I hope everyone had a fabulous spring break!! More pics are comming soon. Much love <3<3<3<3 Current Mood: cheerful | | Wednesday, February 16th, 2005 | | 1:19 am |
Crawldads in the Freeezer.. GET IT!
Okay. I would like to know who is going to Louisville so i could bum a ride from them. Also, is everyone staying the whole weekend cause i kinda wanna just stay for one day. Well, Jake fixed my comp and i got a splitter so i can get on the internet now. Yaaay! So hopefully i'll make more posts. Today was a really good day cause i got an A on a quiz and an A on a test i took today which made me feel really good. I feel like a learned a lot of random crap today in reading too because we have to read these random passages about all kinds of stuff, and for some reason the things we read abotu stick in my long term memory. So today was really really productive & to top it all off, it was the most beautiful day EVER! Okay Random Facts i learned today: Monarch butterflies can fly half way around the world and have such tiny brains that researchers can't figure out how they can all navigate to the same place. They have the absolute smallest brains & are the only butterflies that even make these long trips & the reason for this is unknown. Psyc studies have shown that women cope with stress by caring for thier children (if they have any) and talking to friends or family about it, while men tend to use the "flight or fight" effect & use anger or neglect people they love in order to deal with their stressful situation. Plastic, colorful see through covers are now used on textbooks at certain schools because it helps people who have trouble reading, read better because it helps them see the words better in contrast with the color. Different colors help different people. People who are left-handed tend to have dislexia (i for example), also left-handedness is more common in men than women, but its not genetic. STRANGE. Hah nooo joke! i learned the most random shit today, some of it just sticks in my head, and i thought i'd share it with everyone cause its interesting to me. Well, anyways, i'm a total dork and i got to get back to my psyc reading and go to BED!! Im soooo SLeePy! goodnight. Current Mood:  bitchy | | Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005 | | 1:39 pm |
Hi i'm Megan and i have a personality disorder..
I had this condition since i was in 8th grade. At first i thought i was going insane, and now im releaved to know that it is an actual condition with an actual name. I want everyone to read this. I think more people have this disorder, but just dont report it. It's not really a popular disorder and a lot of doctors aren't really aware of it i think. It's called Depersonalization Disorder. DEPERSONAIZATION DISORDER: Strangers to Our Selves When your world seems strange and you've lost your sense of self, you'll be hard pressed finding a name for your affliction. But there is one "Depersonalization Disorder", and it's nothing new. It may happen when you first wake up, or while flying on an airplane or driving in your car. Suddenly, inexplicably, something changes. Common objects and familiar situations seem strange, foreign. Like you've just arrived on the planet, but don't know from where. It may pass quickly, or it may linger. You close your eyes and turn inward, but the very thoughts running through your head seem different. The act of thinking itself, the stream of invisible words running through the hollow chamber of your mind, seems strange and unreal. It's as if you have no self, no ego, no remnant of that inner strength which quietly and automatically enabled you to deal with the world around you, and the world inside you. It may settle over time, into a feeling of "nothingness", as if you were without emotions, dead. Or the fear of it may blossom into a full-blown panic attack. But when it hits for the first time, you're convinced that you're going insane, and wait in a cold sweat to see when and if you finally do go over the edge. What you don't know at the moment is that this troubling experience is distinctly human, experienced briefly at some time or another by as much as 70 percent of the population. In its chronic form, popular culture once saw it as part of a nervous breakdown. Some have called it "Alice in Wonderland" disease. Jean Paul Sartre called it "the filth" , William James dubbed it "the sick soul". It's been linked philosophically to existentialism, even Buddhism. Yet to its victims, it's anything but an enlightened state of mind. Welcome to the world of Depersonalization Disorder. The term itself has been around for a long time. A psychologist named Dugas coined it as a unique medical condition back in 1898. While the word "depersonalization" is often linked to "dehumanizing" situations such as prison life or brainwashing, chronic depersonalization is an insidious mental condition that can begin on its own. The individual's perceptions of the self and the self's place in the world somehow shifts into a mindset that is altered from the norm, becoming hellish for most. Depersonalization, as a symptom, is what the majority of us experience at some time in our lives. It occurs briefly, and has no lasting effect. Depersonalization Disorder, however, is a chronic illness that can take a dreadful and long-lasting course. According to DSM-IV, Depersonalization Disorder, in part, constitutes the following: ... a feeling of detachment or estrangement from one's self . The individual may feel like an automaton or as if he or she is living in a dream or a movie. There may be a sensation of being an outside observer of one's metal processes, one's body, or parts of one's body. One key phrase in the disorder's DSM-IV definition is: reality testing remains intact, Janiger adds. While a degree of depersonalization may be present in other illnesses, like schizophrenia, this is not a psychotic condition. The person knows that something is terribly wrong, and grapples with trying to figure out what it is. If anything, it's the opposite of insanity. It's like being too sane. You become hypervigilant of your existence and things around you. Signs of depersonalization can occur with many illnesses, however isn't clear why the condition persists in some people. Chronically depersonalized persons (or D-People as they're often called) are usually highly intelligent, and prone to intellectual ruminating. Onset is most often seen at an early age, from around puberty to the late twenties. In time, depersonalized people can make some accommodations to the condition, Janiger says. They know it won't kill them or make them insane. It isn't a progressive illness. It may constitute a subtle alteration of perception. It's more like adjusting to a pair of glasses that makes everything appear upside down. Eventually one may find ways of adapting. Accordingly, people with DP disorder become masters at maintaining a front, appearing quite normal to friends, family and co-workers. The sense of being an automaton as described in DSM-IV is consistent with going through the familiar routines of a lifetime. You do what you're expected to, and say what others expect you too, all the while feeling as if you're acting out of habit, says John, a 32-year-old filmmaker who has had the condition for six years. Your mind is always a million miles away. All natural spontaneity and joy of living is gone. You know something's wrong, and you're constantly battling with what it might be, and evaluating how you feel. This disease fascinates me. I dont know if its only because i have it, or because there's no logical explanation for it. Further research is being done on it, but i wish we knew more about it and why it happens. If anyone is interested in this, or feels that they may have it, feel free to talk to me about it because its nice to know that im not the only one with this condition. | | Tuesday, January 25th, 2005 | | 5:25 pm |
WoW i must be bored!
I can't believe i'm acually doing this, but i guess this is what live journal is all about.. posting random personal stuff up for everyone to see. lol. [1] First name? Megan [2]Middle name? Elise [3]Last name? Kean [4]Nicknames? Meg-a-Bucks, Strawberry short legs, STUMP, Short fry, & MeggieLeesie [5]Gender? female [6]Birthday? July 31, 1984 [7]Age? 20 [8]Sign? LEO- which explains a lot. [9]Single? Nope [10]Who is the lucky someone? John Jacob Hobson <3 <3 [11]Have you ever been in love? With who? Omg yea.. alot of mabies, mostly infactuations, but i think it comes down to Nathan & now, JAkE! [12]Do you smoke? Ocasionally, but not very often [13]Do your friends? HuH? umm yea i guess i'd do em if u paid me a lot of money! lol [14]Best friends? O Gosh, its changed a lot over the yrs, but right now i'd have to say: Anna, Lauren, & Amanda [15]Who do you talk to most often online? Usually people from Lousiville like Justin & Brian mostly. [16]Funniest friend? TildA fo Sure! [17]Smartest friend? Jake [18]Dumbest friend? Hahaha no comment. [19]Most outgoing? Chip [20]Shyest? Amanda [21]Favorite food? GOsh! EVERYTHING. [22]Least Favorite food? i dunno.. proubly sour cream or cottage cheese ( i hate tha way is smells) [23]Favorite movie? TONS.. Requiem for a dream, big fish, & so on.. [24]Favorite song? "Porcelin" Moby [25]Favorite color? Pink [26]Last person kissed? JAKE [27]Last hugged? JAKE [28]Last thing ate? subway on WHEAT BREAD (i hope ur happy amanda) [29]Last person talked to on phone? Jake [30]How long was your longest relationship? 3 yrs (nathan) [31]Turn ons? Back muscles!! And perhaps lips.. And tons more im sure [32]Turn offs? farting, belching, or doing any other gross manly thing men do [33]Do you look like anyone famous? Ian Somerhalder (shhh! dont tell Jake!) [34]What time did you wake up? uhh 11:00 this morning, but like 8 tom ugh! [35]What are you are listening to? Jake snore! hahaha [36]Who are you thinkin about? ummm no one [37]Do you want to get married? YeP [38]Memory..Bad..? I shut my finger in the window this morning when i was trying to feel the weather outside! oouuuuch! [39]Memory..Good..? My MoMmY <3 [40]Do you wear jewelry? Yes totally, im an accessory fiend! [41]Ocean or pool? OCEAN OFCORSE!!! [42]Do you get along with your family? yea except for my stepdad [43]What is your striving job outside of school when graduating? Teaching kindergarten, while getting a graduate degree in FiLm <3 [44]Do you swear a lot? OMG Fuck yea [45]In front of parents? No way, sometimes it slips out in front of my ma tho [46]Where is all your time spent? my room/jakes room [47]Do you like where you live? yea pretty much.. i want a house tho!! [48]Where do you live? PfT baby!! [49]Where do you want to move to? A nice lil house with some friends & my own room w/ PiNk furniture.. lol im a major dork [50]Do people say you are crazy? Yea, but more weird than crazy, and i take that as a complement. The Last Cigarette: saterday night @ sigma nu ParTY! Last Alcoholic Drink: Saterday night Last Car Ride: uhh like 2 hrs ago Last Kiss: like 20 min ago Last Good Cry: Sunday afternoon Last Book Read: In the process of reading my Developmental psy book. Thats all i have time to read. Last Movie Seen in Theatres: White Noise w/ Amanda Last Movie Rented: Garden State Last Cuss Word Uttered: Proubly "shit" Last Beverage Drank: Water Last Food Consumed: Ohh gosh! Dont wanna know.. "a fresh green salad & lots and lots of veggies n' fruit" NOT! Last Crush: Jake.. man i was crushing on him for a looong time Last Phone Call: MoM Last TV Show Watched: Seinfeld i think.. but i havent seen a lot of tv lately Last Time Showered: This morning Last Shoes Worn: WtF? uh my heels that gave my feet blisters. Last CD Played: Yeah yeah yeahs Last Item Bought: A skirt and shirt from american eagle (and now im broke) Last Download: nothing.. Jake's anal about downloading shit on this comp Last Annoyance: Jake's loud snoring right now! ahhh Last Disappointment: knowing that i have to get a new job.. total bummer Last Thing Written: notes for class Last Webpage Visited: LJ!! OMG! Lj! ahh! HaH! Well, this couldn't be possible without the magical right-click cut n' paste & Erica's hott ass quiz taking skills. I couldn't have done it without ya! <3 Current Mood:  determined | | Thursday, January 20th, 2005 | | 6:36 pm |
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Am i acually making an entry?
I want to party tonight really bad. I think it's because i havent been to a party here in so long. People were telling me how theres a buck of parties tonight because its rush week. I guess im gonna have to be a typical college kid, getting drunk and going to frat parties since ofcorse it's thursday! ahahahahaha. lol. I think we'll have lots of fun tho. If anyone is interested in comming, let me know. Current Mood:  boredCurrent Music: Completely silence.. it's wonderful! | | Wednesday, January 5th, 2005 | | 9:41 pm |
Haha.. people are so over the top dramatic. I love this live journal shit. Current Mood:  drained | | Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 | | 11:53 pm |
an update...
God i miss Jake so much its ridiculous. He makes everything alright, and loves me unconditionally. Uhh.. last night i got really drunk and had to drive cause we got kicked out of that house we were at. Yea i know.. really really stupid! what was i thinkning. I just lucky that me, bill, and lauren are still alive. I'm gonna have to cool off till newyears. Even tho i got completely obligerated last night i had a blast. So much randomness happend! I'm really sooo sick of people treating other people like shit. Especially when those people have no clue what that person they "love so much" is doing to them. NEWSFLASH: no one can ever be trusted. Dont know what im doing for newyears yet, but im gonna see Erica n' Matt!! yaay! I'm sure we'll have fun no matter what we do. Today, all day i felt like crap. I wanted to throw up but my mom fixed me chicken noodle soup and gingerale, and i ended up watching gumby and popeye dvd's that i bought for a dollar at walmart. So, now i feel better.. mom + cartoons = improved health. lol! | | Saturday, December 25th, 2004 | | 3:13 pm |
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| | Sunday, December 19th, 2004 | | 12:35 am |
CAnt waiT 2 go HOME!
I absolutley love Bill to peices, but... Somebody's sexuality is being questioned. Lauren, you know what im talkin about! smoothin groovin: megan! DKean22925: Bill! smoothin groovin: whats going on hunny? A FEW LINES LATER .......... smoothin groovin: I work at a tanning bed DKean22925: thats cool smoothin groovin: if u come to lex. I can hook u up smoothin groovin: but i might get fired, but your worth it megan! DKean22925: thankyou darling smoothin groovin: I miss you! megan He's a lil sweetheart. Another reason i'm excited to go back. FRIENDS. I love them, even if they're gay. <3 | | Thursday, December 16th, 2004 | | 1:06 pm |
Almost Done!
Okay, 3 down, 2 more to go! Yea so everyones already done with thier final and i still have 2 more tomorrow. But tomorrows my last day so i dont care. AND unfortunatly, i will be here all weekend working (ofcorse), and wont be home till sunday. I dont care tho cause i have the whole break ahead of me. I'm making a smooth transition from job to job because i'm already on the scedule for Fye next week. So im gonna be rollin in some fat G's $$$$$$$$ Anyways, i've been studyin my ass off, but its all paying off because i actually feel like i've gained a lot of knowledge from these courses. And last night, being stressed out beyond belief, i began to think of how much i appreciate being here in college cause most people aren't able to go to college. So, no matter how stressed i get, i always remind myself of what a priveledge it is being here and how much im getting out of it. Anyways, i am SoOo excited to get home! I talked to my mom last night and she told me that she missed my a lot and she wanted to have a "bake-a-thon" when i get back and just bake a bunch of cookies and things. The thought of it made me feel all warm inside! i <3 my mom. AND i absolutely cannot wait to see my friends: Tilda, B-bop, Joe, Brian & the gang, & Sarah. Especially, Tilda & B-bop. Gosh shes weird, but shes F-ing hilarious too! We're already planning out our week. I CANT WAIT. My mom says that when us three get together, its trouble, and it usually is. lol. But finally everyone will be back in da ville. Good times 4 ril, lol. Ok im gonna stop being a dork now and start studying! ugh. I hope everyone has a wonderful break and happy holidays. Much LoVe! <3<3<3 Current Mood: ecstatic | | Saturday, November 27th, 2004 | | 6:40 pm |
Ok.. I brought my iceskates from home so i wanna go iceskating next weekend!! Anyone interested???? |
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